eMson

Can you see everything i did for you? Do you feel anything thing about me?

I'm wondering why all the time. Why can't I post on your Facebook wall? Why every message I sent there's no reply?

Every time I ask these questions, you will say that it's no appropriate, and you don’t know how to answer me.

Maybe it’s because you don’t love me anymore, you don’t need me anymore. I’m not important to you anymore.

I just called you, and as I expected, you were busy. You said sorry, again, almost every time I called you, you will say that.

I’m not sad or angry or anything, I don’t need your sorry and I don’t want it. All I wanted was a little longer talk with you.

But I know, you are busy.

Sooo busy that you don't have have the time to call me back or send me a message.

You've told me before, "If you really want to do something, you will find the time to do it, even you are busy".

I guess that mean you don't want to do it right now.

Guess I'm not the one anymore.

Sorry? No you are not sorry.

Sorry is meant to comfort the other person by admitting the mistake, but not willing for forgiveness and make you feel better.

But when I heard your sorry, I feel bad, I feel like I shoudn't be calling you, feel like I wasting your time.

In my heart, you are just much more important than I am. My time is nothing comparing to yours, my love is nothing that you can't even see it.

I'm trying to act like everything is fine when I call you. I don't want you to have pressure, don't to pass my unhappiness to you.

I hope I'm still the one, even I know I'm not. If anyone comes in and take my place in your heart...then I don't know what to do, I really don't know.

Everytime my phone rings I hope it's you, everytime I got an E-mail I hope it's you.

I'll hope and I'll wait.

I really don't want people to come in, but you are letting them in. Now there are too many of them, and I can't take a stand.

It's killing me by watching them taking you away. It feels like stabbing a knife to my heart everytime they call you.

But I will stay here untill you say "yes" to anyone, on matter how bad I'm wounded, I'll be here.

Just because it's you, Emily.