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Emily, i found a hole in my heart when i go to shower.

This one is bigger comparing to the 1st one, much much bigger.

It doesn't hurt when i touch it, but its pain kills me when i come to think of you.

Hey, did i tell you how often i think of you? I think i did, i think of you more often than i breath!

So do you know what im feeling right now? I feel like i want to kill myself every single second...

There is too much memories of yours in my brain, my blood, my heart. They just never go away, instead, there more and more.

苦沖開了便淡, but what if the bitterness is so strong, how long is it gonna take?

Just like you, how long is it gonna take you to forgive me, unblock me, talk to me, meeting me?

I know your answer, it's "i dont know".

But im gonna tell you mine answer, it's never. I will never get over this pain. I will never learn to let go.

It's you, Emily, how can I let go? It's you, so I don't know how.

He's never gonna be your cookie monster.

He doesn't care much about you, he's only trying to have fun, that's why he can let you go so easily and pretenting to be nice.

He doesn't know you, he don't know what you need, what you love, what you think. He is only doing what is good for himself.

He can only be your friend at most, if you let him into your heart, he will break it, for sure.

The cake you made for his birthday, he kill it, he stab a knife into its stomach, its neck.

If I were the one who got the cake, I won't even have the courage to eat it, because it's so cute and full of your love.

I'm not saying there is no one else for you, but not him, not Thomas Lee.

If you start a couple relationship with him, I will be gone the next second. I won't give a shit to this mother fucker, so as anyone having a relationship with him.

By the way, I found he's photos, he looks so....horrible. Ugliest face ever seen in my life. I feel sorry for him, too.

So, find yourself a better one, Emily.

Oh, and this is a message from you beloved cookie monster, Johnson.

"happy birthday", 一條短信, 沒有任何其他標點符號, 這就是你給我的生日禮物. 但我收到的時候很開心, 覺得我很幸福.

Thomas生日, 你親手做了一個雪糕蛋糕, 是cookie monster的外形.

我以為這是我和你之間的秘密, 我和你的密語, 是我們快樂幸福的證據.

你居然把它做成生日蛋糕送給了這位男生.

你送他的不是一個蛋糕, 而是我的快樂, 我的幸福, 我的回憶, 我的所有.

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有句话说的很好，当我为你流泪的时候，因为我还深爱着你。

如果有一天，我不再为你流泪了，因为我心伤了，也慢慢学会了放弃。

为什么你说出那句话的时候，我 没有心痛。

也许，我们不是同一路上的人，各自有各自的幸福天下，没有放不下的东西，伤心了自然会放下。

后来，连心痛也失去了知觉……

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Emily, 你是否已經不會為我而流淚和心痛了.

昨天的道別, 你心中已經沒有一點不捨.

你叫我走, 我能去哪裡, 該去哪裡.

你說我的痛, 你不能理解, 因為你不是我. 但是你有否嘗試著去理解.

我知道要成功, 就要堅持. 但是你看到的, 只是煩厭, 而不是我的毅力和決心. 更不是我對你的愛.

我真的很想很想和你在一起, 但我其實沒有你想像中那麼自私, 我說的很多不是為了我自己, 而我會逼自己離開的.

只要你開心, 只要你幸福.

我的開心, 你要走了. 我的幸福, 你不再給我了.

但我會走下去的, 我會堅持下去, 我不會放棄, 因為那是你, 所以我放不下.

我想我是真的, 愛上你了.

如果两个人想好好的在一起，必须有一个人特别特别会忍。那些难过，那些委屈，我很想说，其实我都懂。我们不是每天都像看起来的那么开心，我们都有很累很累 的时候。你的疲惫，我看得到。我要你开开心心的，即使再难过，但只要想起有个人在默默的陪伴你，即使是在很远很远的地方，也能感觉很温暖。

如果你累了, 就讓我來忍吧.

我懷念的是無言感動　我懷念的是絕對熾熱
我懷念的是你很激動　求我原諒抱得我都痛
我記得你在背後　我記得我顫抖著
記得感覺洶湧　最美的煙火　最長的相擁

誰愛的太自由　誰過頭太遠了　誰要走我的心　誰忘了那就是承諾
誰自顧自地走　誰忘了跟著我　誰讓愛變沉重　誰忘了要給你溫柔

(我懷念的)　我還有想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日　也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空　最緊的右手　最暖的胸口
我放手　我讓座　假灑脫　誰懂我多麼不捨得
太愛了　所以我　沒有哭　沒有說

我不難過　這不算什麼　只是為什麼眼淚會流我也不懂

打電話比你打左7日, 頭先終於通左, 我接嘅時候好緊張,好興奮,但都好害怕.

可惜, 電話傳出黎嘅, 唔係你把聲.

凌晨1點幾了, 你仲未翻屋企, 仲要唔舒服. 我聽到嘅時候我好擔心, 但宜家更多嘅係心痛.

心痛, 係因為我已經冇辦法陪係你身邊.

希望你身邊個個人, 有好好咁照顧你, 愛護你, 一直陪住你.

希望他比我更好.

本來好長嘅txt msg, 刪凈一句"hope u feel better tmr." 然後先send比你.

"juju,bin dou ng xu fok?" 一個冇權利再去叫嘅稱呼, 一句已經有人親口慰問過嘅說話, 刪吧.

"im worried abt u,when r u going home?" 你不再在乎嘅擔心, 厭倦回答嘅問題, 刪吧.

"call me if u need me la!" 根本就唔會需要我, 比我好的已經太多太多, 刪吧.

"good night! muah! sek fan jau mo shi ga la!" 我講嘅晚安,錫錫,同氹你嘅說話都已經冇曬甜蜜,溫暖,幸福. 我已經唔係你心中嘅個個. 刪吧.

有些事情，我愿去做，却是望尘莫及；很多东西，我想拥有，总觉力不从心。你是我指缝中的阳光，看上去是那样的温暖而美好，可我总也抓不住。跋涉在爱的迷 途，我一直在追寻着你的脚步，竟然想不起来时的方向。那一路看到的，都是不属于我的风景，我只能一边辛苦地走，一边艰难地忘。

太爱一个人，你会太在乎他跟谁一起，心里是否有你；太爱一个人，会被他牵着鼻子走，完全不能自已；太爱一个人，会无原则地忍受他，慢慢他习惯被纵容；太爱一个人，他会习惯你对他的好，而忘了自己也应该付出。所以，爱一个人不要爱十分，八分已足够，剩下的两分爱自己。